Breaks to Become a Better Mother and Getting Healthy... a Combined Effort.

This is me...

   I obviously have a few pounds to shed, but that isn't the only purpose for this blog.  The idea of this blog?  Although I love being mama to my two boys, it can be quite stressful at times.  Sometimes I feel like I shut down for a bit and don't tackle the things in life I should.  My goal is to not have hanging things in my life... things that should be done, or I'd like to do one day, just be able to enjoy and tackle life as it comes.

   I rarely get breaks from my boys, and although I love being with them I sometimes feel so stressed I cry.  This mostly comes from power struggle fights with my three year old.  He is a wonderful, sweet, and caring little boy... most of the time.  BUT, the two percent of the time he is difficult it makes me want to pull my hair out.  I want to be a better mother, and I know I can, so goal number one is to take breaks so the time I do spend with them is quality time.

   Goal number two is to become healthy and lose weight.  I am not looking for a perfect body, but I definately am in a bad place.  I was overweight a couple years ago and decided I needed to lose some weight, so I did... some of it anyway.

  I excercised, got an active job, and made healthy food choices (mostly).  I also discovered protein shakes which helped curve the hunger.  I went from 195+ to 155 right before I became pregnant with my second son.  I was terrified of gaining weight being pregnant, but that didn't stop me from putting on the pounds.  I ate and I ate, and I ate.  If I felt sick, I ate some more.  I went up to 207+ by the end of my pregnancy.  Within two weeks after the birth, I was down to around 190, where I've stayed since.

   The solution?  Hopefully attending a local gym will help.  The gym will provide child care while I work out which will give me a much needed break as well as allow me to start conquring this weight which are the two things really adding to more stress in my life.  So, as I fight these battles and more, I will document it.  There will be other things too, from my daily life as it all adds to the balancing act.